Pathetic! (aka Entry Menyek-menyek)

These past few days, this old song has been repeated over and over again in my car's stereo and my beloved iPod. The refrain stays in my head, and I often find myself humming it -- even singing it out loud in the restroom, in front of the mirror, with ..er.. "that" expression. Usually when nobody is nearby. At times I don't even bother if a co-worker is apparently sharing the space and flashes me "that" look -- you know, curiousity, ready to spread a news around. I'd just give him/her a wicked smile.

Send me a lover
Someone to believe in
Please send me someone that I can hold

Yes, perhaps it's the time of the year again. When summer is almost ever and the sun smiles tenderly. In only a few weeks, the whole town will breeze up, the sky will be gloomy, and beautiful, colorful trees will indulge our eyes, embracing us with serenity.

And there is an emptiness inside. Of that feeling.

It's not just the physical proximity, having someone's arm around me and mine around him, hearing his heartbeat when I lay my head on his chest, seeking warmth from his body. Or walking through the falling leaves, holding hands, laughing, and exchanging kisses and quick pecks.

Neither is it about listening to a voice a thousand miles apart, blurting sweet words and affections and promises. Reading sentences of love on my tiny cellular phone or the computer's monitor which makes me smile and blush and my eyes dreamy.

It's the sense of belonging, closeness, missing. They're nowhere now. It doesn't hurt, but it is saddening.

Send me a lover
A new beginning
Someone to take away the cold
And give me back what I've been missing
All the love that lays and waits inside your heart

Except, "you" is a blank line.

14 comments:

mellyana said...

kita berdua sama sama layak mellow ya? pengaruh full moon apa ya? sama sama ngutip lagu pulak. tapi aku lagi kasuat suat ama it might be you....

sing a long sambil muewek muewekkk...kwaaaaaaa

(tapi tulisannya di blog kembaran)

Silverlines said...

Ahh .. if a hug could help easing the sorrow away, then .. here's *HUGS* for you ...

I guess the moon does contribute a lot to many melancholic feelings in many parts of the world ..

Take care, girl !

nananias said...

huhhuhu kangen ama perasaan dimiliki!

huaaaaaaaaaaa...

Madame Meltje said...

there'll be someone that take your heart away from you, but there'll surely be someone who eventually put it back where it belongs
;)

don't give up!
sometimes, solitude is the best society.

Apey said...

Duuh jeng...jangan sedih tho. Nih masih ada aku dan bbrp temen lain yg masih "searching for someone to hold" juga. Someday pasti yakin ada deh..inget lagu ini gak? "two less lonely people in the world and its gonna be fine *air supply* :) cheers!

ikutan koment said...

minggu ini minggu menye - menye semuah deh kekna..*ikutan ah* loh

gue juga ikutan koment said...

dah jeng..cup..cup...ntar datang kok si lelaki pilihan itu...sabar yaaaa...!! *huugss..**

mita said...

:)

sontoloyo said...

Kadang dalam hidup ini memang ada saat dimana kita ingin mereguk nikmatnya kebersamaan..pengaruh denyut "daging" yang terlalu kuat membuat kita nyanyi menye menye'

Nikmatin ajalah kesendirian..lihat2 posting sakit hati bisa membuat elo berfikir ulang tentang a lover

Sunny said said...

Lirik ini kayaknya ring a bell deh. Ini lagunya Taylor Dayne (?) bukan sih?

budibadabadu said...

semoga cepat bisa menyanyikan lagu I Finally Found Someone. amin.

freddy said...

no koment deh :P iheiheihe

miund said...

I've been through a serious 'mild' depression phase in my younger days. So serious that the doctor prescription says:

1. Valium
2. No direct exposure to Taylor Dayne, Celine Dion or Toni Braxton

It worked on me... it might work on you, jeng ;) heeeheeehee..

hugs!

Dinda said...

sepertinya memang menye-menye mood on deh semuanya...

hiks... big hug for you sistah...
kita senasippp...